When you feel like a failure....

I have been in a weird mood lately...which has probably come across in online comments. lol.
You ever do that?
Struggle with something personally and it skews your perspective.
Well.
I still feel like a complete and utter failure sometimes.
I know..
When do I get to feel like a winner!
Well...
even if you lose tons of weight..sometimes you still have the voice in your head screaming
FAILURE!!!!
It bothers me when I see kids my daughter's age playing the piano (10)
I can't do that for her.
It bothers me that my house is a mess.
I feel like I chase the mess around the house.
The only thing I feel great about right now is homeschool.
Do you ever feel like you try and try and try and you are still not up to snuff?
Not thin enough.
Not active enough in church.
Not well dressed enough, neat enough, etc.
Well.
I just keep thinking that If I could stumble across the exact plan that will make everything fall into place.
My stress will melt away.
lololol.
um.
right.
It all came to a head a week ago when I was nitpicking my husband about his sock drawer.
I wanted it NEAT.
lol.
I asked him to please straighten it so I would know what went where.
He gave me a hard time.
I gave him a hard time.
And when that argument was over...I realized I had attacked him because I felt out of sorts.
And, instead of focusing on ME...it was easier to point out another's flaws and 'fix' them.
I need to focus on me, on my home.
I need to get at least some of my crap together.
my homeschool organizer and my bill book and a basic cleaning plan (which went out the window with canning and homeschool)
I am not a failure.
I just have a lot on my plate.
So I am cutting myself some slack.
I will get back to you on the first.
Have a good two days guys.
Hugs,
Chris