forming an addiction to happiness

After two days of worry and self torture,

my friend talked to me and within seconds of voicing my concerns he rectified the situation.

There was not even a discussion.

There was only understanding and a prompt solution.

And the solution was exactly the one I envisioned but didn't think was possible.

I got what I wanted/needed.



So why did I feel, I dunno, derailed by the completely positive outcome?

It's brain chemistry, body chemistry, peptides...addiction!



Or as Paul  Chek explains...



"Because our nervous system is programmed to remember threats with far greater acuity than pleasure (because pleasure usually doesn't threaten our lives) without realizing it, we also remember, and tend to reenact the behaviors associated with the memories that are also triggering events for us."

- Paul Chek in Blackbird and the Tao of Heaven



Emotional abandonment,

bullying,

rejection,

are all triggering events

but ones that also seem to "satisfy" when I/we reenact them in our lives.

The hurts from the past seem to feed an addiction to the pain.

When something positive happens,

a "positive interruption to a downward spiral" as Coach Ed Agresta once said, it is indeed an interruption of the old patterns. The old patterns wear grooves in our spirits and quite literally in our brains via neural pathways. Interruption of positivity feels weird, like new sneakers that seem to rub in all the wrong places til they're broken in.



Trick is to keep the new sneakers on and not give in to the urge to put on the old ones.

We can break the cycle if we're willing to be a little uncomfortable.



Mind you, today's blog was going to just say:

Thank you, God.

Thank you, Spirit.

Thank you, Jesus.

Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you th....you get the picture,

because that's how relieved and happy I was.



But I'm still acutely aware of how newly uncomfortable it was to experience

the loyalty I thought was missing (it wasn't really missing),

the understanding I didn't think I'd get (I got it),

the reassurance I didn't think I deserved (don't know if I deserved it but I got it),

and the resolution I thought was impossible (it was possible, probable, and downright inevitable).



This may take some getting used to.

Gotta love new sneakers.



*Lisa's Video Pick of the Day*

Ego deflects us from taking responsibility. It causes confusion.

Chaos creates the illusion that we are still in control.

The closer you get to self the more silent things are.

Holding stillness and silence?

I guess those are the new sneakers.

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