If you Fear it

 

"It's great to pace back and forth, 

passionately spewing some opinion ...

I LIKE teaching 

from a standing position.

I LIKE covering the room 

by walking while I'm talking.

I remember the days of teaching 

from a sitting position.

I don't want to go back to that."

- me, October 10, 2008

Never say never.

My saying I never wanted to go back to having to teach from a sitting position was like my double-dog-dare to the universe to force me back into a sitting position, not as a sadistic joke, but to teach me a lesson. The lesson being that if my worst case scenario should happen, it would not be the end of the world. If what I'm saying "never" about should happen, not only would I survive, but I'd be able to overcome. I'd be able to start over again after a setback and I'd excel.



It happened with the weight loss surgery. I said I'd never, never, never get "that fat" again.

All it took was eating normally to get me "that fat" again.

But now I know why my body reacted the way it did, I'm correcting the health issues, I'm getting into balance,

and I plan to achieve vibrant health.

The regain didn't kill me.

I didn't let it kill my spirit.



It happened with dieting.

I said I'd never, never, never go on another diet.

Well, I'm on a diet. Granted it's a diet to correct metabolic imbalance rather than strictly for weight loss, but it's a diet nonetheless.



Standing?

I remember standing in the shower for the first time after the gastric bypass. I had lost enough weight to make it possible to stand on my own two feet for the duration of a shower. I swore I'd never, never, never go back to sitting on the tub ledge during a shower.

Well, I'm sitting on the tub ledge during my showers because of my knees.

Did the world end?

No.

Now that I've had  both knees replaced I'll be doing the physical therapy I need to do to get up on my own two feet and stand in the shower.



I'm learning that if I fear it, I need to do it so that I no longer fear.

That's why I keep attracting the never, nevers back into my life even after I thought I'd been rid of them forever.

The never, nevers are there to show me that no matter how bad bad can get, I can overcome it.



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High protein diet?

What about fats and carbs?

If you give the body what it needs, it will auto-regulate itself.

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